and the third post for the day...

so tonight, i'm hanging out in my room. there's a semi-formal for my residence going on, but since i never really got to know anyone in good old bennett house, i'm not attending. the only somewhat enticing thing about it was the occasion to get dressed up, so i decided to just do that by myself. so here i am, in my black dress and fur stole, wearing over-the-top red lipstick and blue eyeshadow, and listening to the cabaret soundtrack, wishing i lived in the jazz era. and also that the amelia earhart hat i knit on the way to new york made sense and resembled a hat.


"what good is sitting alone in your room? come hear the music play. life is a cabaret, old chum, come to the cabaret. put down the knitting, the books, and the broom. life is a cabaret, old chum, come to the cabaret!"

hmm.

(that's how i tried to do my makeup. it doesn't work so well on a small-featured ginger kid.)

art post: some older things.

here are some paintings and drawings from the year 2008, in reverse chronological order.
(if you click on them, you can see them much better.)

this was my final project for elements of art class last semester. pen, watercolour, acrylic, pencil and thread on paper.

my first painting at mta. i don't really like it. acrylic on paper.

an assignment to focus on the negative space. watercolour on newspaper on pencil on paper.

one painting i don't actually hate. from the end of grade twelve, painted from observation during a school "river festival". i got frustrated with the whole landscape and came up with this. acrylic on canvas.

a quick blind contour sketch of myself that i liked. pen, watercolour, embroidery on paper.

i have lots of newer stuff i want to post, but i don't have photos of it, and i forgot my camera at home after my trip to new york a few weeks ago. so lots more is coming in two or three weeks when i get it back.

i'm mildly crazy.

i did a personality disorder test. apparently, i am afraid of getting too close to others because of a fear of rejection, with a side of ocd and mild schizophrenia. the first was not surprising, but i found the next two pretty interesting.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

but there was one question that i think could have summed up the entire test for me:
"Do you yearn for intimate relationships yet feel that you are too socially inept to obtain them?"
that's pretty much my entire life.

what i'm listening to lately.

here are some things i'm liking lately. this edition: music.

handsome furs. i've loved them since their first album came out, but their new one, face control, came out a few weeks ago and is also fantastic. plague park, their first is also wonderful. of course, i love anything that any member of wolf parade touches. which brings me to my next album.

swan lake consists of spencer krug from wolf parade, carey mercer from frog eyes, and dan bejar from destroyer/new pornographers. their first album is one of my favourites ever, and their second just came out today. i've just downloaded it and gotten through two songs, and love it already. wow.

next, i'm on a musical kick.

cabaret. i freaking love liza minnelli. that is all.

wicked. i was so lucky as to see this on broadway a few weeks ago, after years of loving the music. and it was hands down the best and most emotional musical i've ever seen. i cried before the end of the first song. i was worried that the current cast would be disappointing because they weren't idina menzel and kristen chenoweth, but they were both just as great. galinda was a bit girly for my tastes, but elphaba was wonderful.
(that's me with nicole parker, who played elphaba. i'm cool.)

and last, but not least...

okay. bat boy the musical. it sounds ridiculous, but hear me out on this. my university put on a production of this musical last week, and i actually fell in love with it. it's awesome in a musical-about-something-ridiculous-and-kind-of-gory-but-it's-actually-hilarious-and-sweet-and-heartbreaking kind of way. like my favourite musical ever, little shop of horrors. the music is actually really good, and the show itself is hilarious. the song "children, children" was perhaps the funniest scene in a play i've ever seen. it's amazing. definietly see it if you ever have a chance.

new project.

here's my latest project: "set design for an autobiographical play: act III scene 4 (finale)"

(click for bigger)

it's for a project for elements of art class. we had to made a miniature scene and photograph it for publication in a booklet. i immediately remembered my mom making miniature mock-ups of set designs for high school plays, which i loved to help her with as a child, so theatre came to mind. i did this around an idea i've been working with, production designs for a (fictional) autobiographical play. this shows the final scene, my death scene. had i more time, i would have made a miniature myself, who has gotten tangled up in yarn and falls onto knitting needles, piercing the heart. that's how i see myself dying.